Yesterday I woke up in pain. I went about my entire Saturday in pain, even as a took to social media and joked about the Aaliyah movie, I was in pain. Last night (early this morning), I went to sleep in pain and when I got up this morning…. (you guessed it) I was still in PAIN.
Many of my friends, family and following know bits and pieces about my medical issues, as I speak of them occasionally. One being that I survived breast cancer and the other being that I have a condition that effects my eyes called uveitis.
Uveitis is swelling and irritation of the uvea, the middle layer of the eye. The uvea provides most of the blood supply to the retina. Uveitis can effect one or oth eyes and in my case it effects both. It causes sever pain can cause partial or full permanent loss of sight.
I am not a person that runs to the world with my problems nor do I want a pity party. I speak of it because it is my reality and I pride myself on being a woman of truth. I also know that my truth may be what another woman needs to find her way out of depression, despair or the Devils grasp. My reality is that my sight is poor and may one day leave, but my truth is that my vision is GREAT!
Despite this or any other situation, I will always be able to see God; that is vision. I will never doubt or question His greatness and His ability to show up and show out in my life. I have been living with this now for three years and honestly I have never lost faith in God. Even when I sleep and wake in pain, I remain faithful. If I wake up and can’t see at all I will not forget that God has the ability to transform my situation.
I love to read and write, I think that it is my gift to the world among other things. One might think; since I have issues with my sight, I need to find another way to contribute to others. A blogger with poor sight….. That is not the move!!! However, I think of it as encouragement and content. It is a display of my how my vision fuels my faith.
This is another reason why I encourage women to live outside of their situations. You have to get up and greet each day with a smile dispute what you know may awaits you. Everyday, I wake up at 5 a.m. and I tell God that I love Him and trust Him no matter what, then I ask Him to cover my children, love ones and the loved ones of my children and loved ones. I never ask Him to heal me because He knows my heart and I know His will is greater than my desires. I just ask Him to allow the world to see Less of me and more of Him. And then is start my day filled with FAITH!